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Inside
Bleeding

S together. A quick walk through the nearest convenience store

aturday nights in my little town are the best. Spending
my weekdays and nights working and studying like a
gives the employees reason for concern so we head back home.
I crawl into bed. It sneaks in again. Like an inescapable tsunami,
dog, I have been craving this night all week. I jump in my
the weight of the world darkens my mind, heart, and soul. It
truck, roll the windows down, and take a whiff of that
warm, summer air as I head to pick up my buds. We’re
off to escape life for a bit; that’s what we’ve done every
of success for me. I didn’t have the easiest life growing up but I
Saturday night for two years straight. Tonight we decide on a shows up every night; it has for years. I have mapped out the way
didn’t have it overbearingly hard either. My life has been good.
movie, an action thriller that creates enough adrenaline in us to Still, there are days I wish it all would end. I hardly make it
make us consider forming a small army. We won’t take on the through the day without thinking about ending the days all
Marines, but maybe some junior high kids on the paintball course. together. Am I bi-polar? It’s a word I have heard tossed around
We laugh a lot while reenacting some Jackie Chan moves in the but don’t know what it means. I keep telling myself I have no
parking lot, hoping not to see berries and cherries again. Hunger reason to complain. The facts are evident to me, but yet my
comes suddenly. McDo is close by so we head over for some food. feelings seem to trump all of that. My racing mind keeps me
We catch wind that our girls (okay, how about some girls we awake. Knowing I only have five hours until my Sunday morning
liked) were going to be there, so we strut on over. For the shift, I finally succumb to sleep.
moment, everything is perfect: good friends around me, family It’s 5 am and the horn blares in my ear. I have to be dreaming.
that loves me, laughter, a plan, and a work ethic to bring it all Strobe lights throw me into a panic as I wonder where in the hell I